I am sitting here, alone again.  Feeling lonelier than I have ever felt before.  

I am so tired of waiting around for something big to happen, but I am too afraid to make a move.

Why is it that I am sinking faster and further than I have ever felt before, I don't know how much longer I can take it? 

I am the only one that can make my life go in the direction that I want it to, I am the only one left at the end of the night, only here, with my own thoughts.  So why is it that I cant just stand up for what I want, what i feel like i need and make my move????? Why?????? WHY????? 

I will follow anyone who leads me to you.

I miss you so much.

I miss you more than you will ever understand, why do you think your pictures still hang on my wall?

I miss you more than you will ever understand, why do you think I am being short and distant from you?

I miss you more than you will ever understand, why is that every time I get on this damn thing I wanna read what you wrote. 

I miss you more than you will ever understand, why does no one see me falling deeper?

I miss you more than you will ever understand, why can't we stop this mess?

I miss you more than you will ever understand, I don't even understand... how could you? Or anyone for that matter?

FML.

I can not wait to get out of here at the end of this month, I can not wait to see my best friend of over 8 years.  I can not wait to explore a new city, with new things to do and people to meet. I can not wait.  

ok so that did not work, oh well...

Fresh new start.

Don't lose your dinosaur.

New to blogspot

I am finding more and more that I need to write, so I am writing on here.... Livejournal is pretty dumb right now.... and I would rather that I write on here, so that not as many people read or hear about it. This is for me.  

I will copy some of my lj posts on here, just to keep my thoughts.